Understanding My Self

I have a very disguising habit of not concealing issues may it be my life's issues or a simple silly issue.

Just a day back i was very weak at a moment to slip away a word about my life to one of my friends,i felt very bad on my self and i want punish my self.It was a issue of my girl.She was very much disguised by my act, she is a very understanding girl who does'nt get any anger on me even if i do a fall.But i cannot continiously hirt her on a row.I love her and i decided not to go against her will from now and i suppose to be fair to my self.

I just misunderstood that"why she does'nt like the current issue"but i hve realised that actually she want to do much more than that but she is help less now.I will not slip any thing to any body eccept her on any issue.

Loving is just giving.But i cant help myself to obstain from that from the moment.She having problems, even does gets to me often but me a stupid does it continiously to irritate her and sometimes even get to heart but this is not the right thing.I will not do that again.I bow to her from the time.I know that when she will be mine, she will never reject my word any way.

There was a issue earlier when i was a bit romantic with her, actually she did 'nt even objected or dejected me and taught me to express any thing i get accross. even when she did'nt liked that issue. but i understood her now and i respect to give any thing rather than expecting any thing.

She is best suited for me, may not be me a perfect to her. I dont want to loose her. I will never deject, i will kill my thoughts for her.But she will not even be able to accept that of killing my thought, so i should express but not stress her.She wants my self to be expressed but not to just impress and i will do continue to reveal the real i eccepting not to stress her. When i say i have written someting she will be eager to view that.I will do to her expectations in future.I really started loving her from the moment rather i suppose the previous was infactuation regarding my love. but i can difinitely say that my friendship was a true one but not an infactuation.My love is ascending which is making me more caring more sharing more conserving and more accepting and i shall never halt this untill my last breath.